I hate February, I never seem to understand why two people are expected or required to celebrate one day of the year on their love for one another, I mean it gets quite boring because I ask myself why can't everyday be Valentine's day? Seriously, we don't need a specific day to show our appreciation to love and happiness and if you're expecting a gift because it's Valentine's day then it's not a relationship based on love or trust but a relationship based on expectation involving what one could buy, I mean it would be shameful for anyone who tremendously cares about love and happiness to buy it with luxury and expensive gifts, it's like saying in order to make friends one must buy them something to bond, it's literally buying friendship and anyone who agrees to it or accepts such an offer isn't exactly a friend but someone who know's you're a complete walkover, however, I would only celebrate Valentine's day it truly was deserved on the basis of love, trust, appreciation and a bond of friendship for life, in this case I doubt it, there's too much deception that is committed in the world on the grounds of love and trust, men don't know how to stay committed to one woman and there's also woman who do it too by deceiving partners, having affaires and whatever else they do and what for? It cannot be love, it's obviously just company, I'm actually glad I've never been committed, I'm even more glad that I've never had a relationship with anyone because I'm waiting for the right person and at the right moment, I believe fate will do it's cause later in the near future but who knows? Anything can happen in that time, for all I know nothing might come of it but yeah, I couldn't really care that much, I've never really had a real friend in my life, most of my so called friends are only my friend because they want something from me, they think I'm blind but I notice everything because if I cannot offer them anything they're never around afterwards, I also have family that do this to me as well and they're family!!!
Anyways, I getting prepared for my trip to Johannesburg at the end of the month, I'm actually going to travel from Johannesburg to the capital, my lovely city of Pretoria, I want to explore the Union Buildings (Parliament of South Africa) because I've heard all these rumours about the grounds on which the building is based on and all these superstitions dating back from the second Boer War, but yeah, I'm not really into the whole if you do that this will happen saga It's so boring, of course I've seen the Union Buildings when we've driven past it but never have I literally stopped to observe the building even though it's actually very beautiful
So right now, it's a beautiful Sunday morning, it's 25 degrees the sun is shining and I'm here writing this, as well as, I'm broke so there's no point in going out, but, the reason I'm broke is due to my well-being and what I've been doing for the greater good even though it's never appreciated, although I have actually got money I'm not going to spend it because the money of which I'm supposed to spend I was pushed into a heavy dilema with my family of which a desperate member who shall not be named needed a loan of which I was called on every member of my family because apparantly I know how to budget (obviously in this case not) anyhows, I decided I might as well hand it over which I did but I wasn't happy about it, after that the member who borrowed it wasn't to be seen again, not a call, not a drop in, not anything but what I do know is that next month they'll know where I am and would play all nicey nice to get me to give into them, it's always the case in my family, and it's strange because three quarters of my family are of major opulence and the rest, well, they're not so fortunate but hey they can survive I mean they're affordable in terms of what they need I mean they're not poor or anything only that 15% of my family are very pushy, I don't wish to offend them but they're however on the outside looking in whereas I am on the inside looking out and I can see that they want that too but I have to be honest, my life really isn't that special so when one hears about how fancy I apparently am or how wealthy I am and that everything in my life is perfect I just want to laugh majorly because it's not, it's because of wealth that it almost destroyed my reputation, it took away my confidence to make real friends and if my family honestly believe that I owe them simply because I haven't seen them in over 16 years then indeed I'm not going to repent in those 16 years I was merely trying to get a good education and succeed, of course I'm still on the verge of getting my bachelor's degree in journalism and later in political-science, I'm still in my innocent gap year so I might as well just take it as it is but in terms of doing what others say simply because they think I owe them then they should think again because it's never going to happen
As for my recent change in establishment I have decided to call on a new one since my arrival here in South Africa, yes, indeed, I'm to appoint a new financial adviser as well as appoint a new private/personal adviser before the end of March the Plattenberg Office will also see new changed in the establishment of which I am head of but nevertheless I am flexible so I'm not going to change my tone but I will change the rules of this establishment, I will introduce more protocol even if it means that my family have to addapt to and yes it will be achieved because I'm very optimistic about the future and I never give up until I've achieved my motive in goal and committment.
Chad C Rensburg
Port Elizabeth, EC, Republic of South Africa
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